Sunday, December 25, 2011

Guess I haven't been *too* naugty

Merry Christmas to you all! I hope everyone is enjoying this GLORIOUS day and remembering the true meaning behind Christmas.

Addam, the girls, and I went to my parents house this morning to have our Christmas breakfast and open presents there. My older sister was there as well. My parents surprised Addam and I by getting us a really nice 46 inch flat screen tv for our bedroom, since the tv we originally had ended up in the girls room... so if we wanted to watch a movie at night, we'd have to do it on Addam's desktop computer. This tv will be a wonderful addition to our room, that's for sure! My parents got the girls a few little gifts as well that they are enjoying.

Our breakfast at my parents was really nice, although anytime Addam and I are around them things get to a be a little awkward (long story). It would be really rude to say we were glad to leave, but we were just ready for go to Addam's moms house where we both knew the atmosphere would be a little better.

From my families house to his moms house is about a 2 hour drive and within 15 minutes in the car, the girls were asleep which gave Addam and I some nice quiet time to ourselves. When we got to his moms, we watched the girls open the rest of their presents then his mom took them outside for a little scavenger hunt. While they were out there playing, Addam and I were sitting on the floor by the fire place drinking wine and listening to Christmas music when we pulls out a jewelery box that had "Kay's" written on it. You know you're getting something really nice when you see the world "Kay" lol. He had special ordered me a GORGEOUS diamond horse shoe necklace. With money being so tight for us, it shocked me that he had spent so much but I am definitely grateful and put it on right away.

It feels so nice to finally be a family again, and that alone is the greatest Christmas present anyone could have ever given me!

We will spend the rest of today at his moms where we will have a huge dinner with the rest of his family and then spend the night. We may go back home tomorrow or stay another night. We aren't sure, but we're just enjoying family time. There is truly nothing better!

Happy Holiday's everyone!!!

Thursday, December 8, 2011

Life... Life is GREAT

As you all know, I've been going down a pretty rocky path with Addam for about the past 6 or 7 months. We basically 'split up,' I moved out, and yatayatayata. Any who, things for the past 2 months have gotten pretty great. So now for my BIG announcement...... Despite the fact that we are already married..............







ADDAM PROPOSED (again)! I'm such a happy lady right now, and I couldn't have asked for a better Christmas present! We were laying in bed the other evening after I had just gotten back from a rough day at work. He kept staring at me ALL EVENING (creeeeeeeeepy!). Finally, after dinner he went to his room. I followed him so I could relax for the first time all day. He started talking to me and asking me a couple of little questions, and then sat up above me and said, "Will you marry me?" I just sort of looked at him before asking about 30 different times, "are you sure?" Of course I said yes. So we are going to plan a second wedding. Our first wedding was just at the court house, so this time we're going to do the whole "wedding dress at the chapel" thing.

So what do you ladies think of these 2 fancy numbers? I am in LOVE!
http://www.maggiesottero.com/dress.aspx?pageSize=100&page=1&style=JD1381
http://www.maggiesottero.com/dress.aspx?pageSize=100&page=1&style=JD1430


It'll probably be more than 1/2 a year before we actually have the wedding, but it's gonna happen (even if I have to drag him by his kahunas). Oh! And we're back to living together too. :) Ahhh yes, I am one happy gal!

On another note, I really hate ignorant, no good, dirty rotten people. So for the last 2 years I have been trying to find those reindeer antlers for your car that come with the little red nose for the grill of the car, but I never could find them. So this year I ordered them for $25 off of amazon. Any who, the other night I was at Addam's and when I went to go to my car one of the antlers had been snapped in half and the nose was completely gone. I'm FURIOUS! I told Kalie and Madelyn to find out which one of their little friends did this act of crime but I doubt I'll ever know. So thanks little rats, for ruining my lovely and very cute Rudolph car decorations! I hope Santa brings you nothing but a little lump of coal... frankly you don't even deserve that.

Monday, November 28, 2011

Back off! He's Mine!

Why some women (and men) find the need to go after someone who they know is taken is beyond me. It is honestly one of my biggest pet peeves (and I have A LOT!). So stop trying to be a home wrecker, find yourself a man or woman who is SINGLE, and leave the taken ones alone.... alright I'll back track and start from the beginning:

Adam, Kalie, Madelyn, and I decided to go have a nice family dinner last night at Cracker Barrel (I'll have the Chicken Fried Chicken please!). The first 15 minutes of us sitting down was pretty much a disaster with Madelyn spilling her tea, Kalie knocking the plate of biscuits and corn bread on the ground breaking the plate, and Adam looking as frazzled as ever... but eventually we all started to settle down. Our meals came and we were all enjoying each others company. Finally, after we had all finished eating dinner, the waitress came to our table and asked Adam how long he had been in the Navy (I reckon she saw his Navy jacket sitting on the back of his chair). They started talking, which was completely fine with me, but then she started getting into her personal life. She started telling him how she and her husband are getting a divorce and how he is in the Air Force and blahblahblah. THEN she asked if she could have his number! Oh. My. God! Lady! Do you not see me sitting here with my WEDDING RING on my hand positioned where you can clearly see it?! I don't think Adam was really thinking anything into it. He has always had a tendency to be oblivious to woman who are flirting with him. I guess he just doesn't know what flirting is (poor guy). Luckily Adam said that he only kept numbers in his phone of family, super close friends, and people he worked with. After a bit,

I took Kalie and Madelyn over to the big checker board since they had been dying to play all evening. When I turned my head over to look at Adam to smile at some wacko thing Madelyn had said, the waitress was back again but leaning on the table EXTREMELY close to Adam clearly trying to turn on the "charm." This just got to be to much. I told the girls to continue playing, to be quiet and be good, and that I'd be right back.

I walked back to the table and tapped the waitress on the shoulder. She turned to look at me as I held up my finger with my wedding ring on it, "Do you see this ring? This is my WEDDING RING. Do you see the ring on his hand? That's his wedding band. Can you put 2 and 2 together and understand that we are married? So I would appreciate if you would stop hitting on MY husband and get back to work." On the 15 minute ride home, I was quiet the entire time. When we got back to the house, the girls went inside and Adam and I sat out in the car. He looked over at me with a questioning look. I told him that nothing bothered me more than someone hitting on someone else who they know is either married or in a relationship. I've never been the jealous type, hell Adam can have all the female friends he wants I truly could careless, but when a person finds the need to flirt with my HUSBAND that just draws the line.

Maybe I over reacted, I don't know. It just bugs the hell out of me ya know? When our relationship is better then ever and then to have some moron try and hit on my husband? It just really hits a nerve.

OK, I've vented enough. So what do y'all think? Did I over react? And this ever happened to you?

Thursday, October 27, 2011

Worms, Hair loss, and Halloween.

Ya, I'm totally slacking on blogging... but time just seems to be getting away from lately. School, work, Adam, and the girls seem to be getting ALL my attention lately. I've seriously forgotten the meaning of the word 'relaxation' so if anyone cares to share what it is, I'd love to know.

I say that Adam and the girls have gotten a lot of my attention lately, and it probably sounded like it was a bad thing, but trust me... it's not. Last week I actually spent 5 nights in a row with Adam and the girls, which may not seem like a lot for someone who is married, but since Adam and I have 'split' it was a pretty big deal. I know he has A LOT going on his life (I sware that man has more going on in his life than the President), so for me to see him so much in a week really made me feel great. This past Saturday night, I was at my house watching the UT vs. Bama game when he calls me. He says that Madelyn has worms and he needs me to stay at his house and watch Kalie while he takes Mady to the hospital. Worms?! Excuse my French, but what the hell? I was literally going 90mph driving to his house.... made every green light and didn't pass a single cop either (SCORE!). Turns out, Madelyn had a pinnworm, which the doctor said was pretty common for children to get, and that it wasn't to serious... a simple pill cleared it right up. But what Adam and I couldn't figure out, was how Mady got the worm out of the toilet to show him... I cringe thinking about her actually sticking her hand in the toilet bowl to get it out.

School is going pretty... well as good as can be expected. I realize that I'm a much better college student, than I ever was in high school though. My ADD and my other many learning disabilities have been giving me some trouble lately but I still refuse to go on any sort of medication. Does that make me sound crazy? I was on a couple of medications back in middle school but I hated the way they made me feel and as stupid as it may seem, I felt like I was only making good grades because of the pills. They're supposed to make you concentrate better, but they never did for me. So I guess I'll work through it and try and push on.

My hair is STILL falling out, and I'm almost 100% positive that it's because of the depo birth control shot I've been on for the past 7 months. I go back to get my next shot on November 3rd and I'm definitely going to speak to my doctor about this. I've lost over 1/3 of my hair and every time I run my hand through my hair, and especially when I take showers, I pull out huge clumps of hair. I've spent many hours crying over this... I know lots of people have hair loss, but every strand that falls out, reminds me of a couple of years ago when I was battling breast cancer and I lost all my hair. Just a horrible memory with every piece that comes out so something needs to be done SOON.

Tennessee weather needs to make up its mind so I can either put up my summer clothing or my fall clothing. One day it's 78 degrees, and the next it's barely hitting 50. No wonder I keep getting headaches! All the pressure changes in the atmosphere is about to make me go crazy.... ya... to late for that (;

So I'll end my blog with a question for you all: Although Halloween falls on a Monday this year, some people are going to trick-or-treat on Saturday, but most REFUSE to go on Sunday because it's well... a church going day. I personally find this ridiculous, but that's just me. So how do you all feel about celebrating Halloween festivities on a Sunday?

Thursday, September 29, 2011

Pity Party time!

I'm throwing myself a pity party tonight! WOOHOO!!! Nothin' like Sweet Home Alabama, The Notebook, Message In A Bottle, and Pirates of the Caribbean (I've got a jar of dirt... I've got a jar of dirt!). I've got my movies going and for my dinner I have some chocolate cheesecake, cheddar cheese popcorn, slim jims, and sugar cookies! If it weren't for my super amazingly fast metabolism, i'd be the size of an 18-wheeler.

Hm so why the pity party? Because Adam is being a royal pain in the ass and I am beyond stressed from work and school and I just need a night to let loose and relax! Psh who needs alochol when I've got cheesecake! Ok... maybe a beer or two wouldn't hurt (;

Adam's life has recently gotten really stressful again, so I know exactly what that means: He will become distant and my guess is he'll probably run... again. But ya know what? I'm not gonna worry about it. I have way to much to stress over. I'll give him his space and I'll be patient with him and then hopefully things will continue to work out.

My birthday pretty much sucked. It was horrible. I cleaned the house then ate left-over pasta. However, the next day was my mothers birthday and so we went out and celebrated both of our days together. I always felt that having my moms and my birthday just a day apart made us a lot closer. We have always celebrated together which makes for some pretty interesting parties.

Oh! Some exciting news! I was asked the other day if I would be willing to speak on November 6th about my experience of being adopted. Ok... I'm sure you're like "big whoop! Who gives a flying fig?!" Well to me, it's extremely amazing. For years now, I've been speaking out, working on a book, and a website all about adoption and helping those who are adopted, adopted a child, and/or put a child up for adoption deal with the daily struggles. I guess you could say that it's been sort of a mission for me. I've never done anything local, so when this lady called me and asked me to speak at a local church I couldn't have been happier! Apparently it's supposed to be this huge event and hundreds of people are going to be there. I'll be one of 3 different speakers. One of the speakers is a woman who put her son up for adoption, the second being the mother and father of adopted twins, and then me the adopted child.

It's so hard to believe that there is just one more day of September left. I can't help but think that this year has gone by so fast! As much as I hate to wish time away, I wont really be crying a river when the year actually ends. I just pray to God that next year wont be as eventful as this year has been lol.

I've noticed today, that I am EXTREMELY sore from my surgery. I've been doing ok lately, but today my neck has really been bothering me. I'm a little worried about it so I think I may go to the doctor tomorrow just to have them check it out. I'd rather be safe than sorry.

I had some more issues with my dumb ass neighbors today and finally, when they were both together, I said to them both "Look y'all, we're neighbors. We don't have to like each other but we do have to live next to each other. I'll stay out of your way if you stay out of mine. I am beyond tired of being targeted from both of y'all and frankly? It's getting old." I just walked away after that. I'm not going to deal with their crap anymore. I have better things to stress over lol.

I'm debating on rather or not I want to go back to MilSpouse or not... I've been away from the site for a couple of months now, and I really miss having everyone there to talk too. But at the same time, I feel like I don't belong because of all the issues going on with me and Adam.... It's just a website I know, but I'd rather not be some place where I'm not wanted. So I'm not exactly sure what I'll do.

Well I reckon I'm gonna continue to pig out and watch my movies. I hope everyone has a wonderful night and enjoy the last day of September tomorrow!

Sunday, September 25, 2011

My shit list got bigger.

I'm beyond pissed. So mad that I can't even stand it. I NEVER ask for anything, not a thing but the one time I did ask for something, I get screwed over. The ONLY thing I wanted for my birthday today was to see Adam... but guess what? HE FORGOT MY BIRTHDAY! Good lord he's known me for years now. How hard is it to remember September 25th? So I guess now I'll just clean the house and watch a little tv. Not much to do around here today. Maybe I'll be really crazy and wash my car. Can you say party animal? Now I do realize that I am blessed to have lived another year and I have a great family and yada yada yada but what woman doesn't want to spend the one day out of the year that's supposed to be HER day, with her man? Maybe i'm over reacting but I don't care. Adam is currently on my shit list at the moment.

Friday, September 23, 2011

Thyroids and tiramisu

Ugh. I am in so much pain right now that it's not even funny... although not sure how any pain could be funny? 5 days ago I had to go through with my Thyroidectomy. Up until the day of surgery, I blocked out that I was even having it done. I knew that if I thought about it, chances were that I wouldn't have even shown up. I'm such a wimp, I know. Luckily they only did a partial Thyroidectomy, so I still have some of my thyroid. The day before surgery SUCKED! Because I was being put to sleep, I wasn't allowed to eat or drink anything. I'm normally a pig and eat everything in sight, so this was a very hard task for me. The surgery lasted about 45 minutes and the very moment I woke up, I was hurting so much. My surgeon cut about a 4 inch incision at the base of my neck, tied off the blood supply to my gland, then the surgeon separated the trachea from the thyroid, and removed part of the thyroid gland. Sounds like fun eh? Ya a real blast. 2 days later I was able to go home. My doctor said it will take about 1-2 weeks before I feel completely back to normal, and for now I'm just supposed to take it easy. I actually have an excuse to be lazy now!

My birth mother came by a few hours ago to drop off some food and surprise me with a little birthday present. Tomorrow I'm just gonna sleep all day, and then Sunday when Adam gets back from his moms, he's gonna come see me (seeing him was the only thing I wanted for my birthday, so I'm really happy).

Let me just say, I HATE my neighbor. She banged on my door right before I sat down to blog and told me to do a better job at keeping my lawn mowed. Really?! I wanted to strangle her. Ya ok lady, I'd like to see you mow your lawn after surgery and when you can't, I'll come bang on your door and get on your case you old slut. Gah! I've been having nothing but trouble with that lady. I have to laugh though... this lady is probably in her late 50's to early 60's and isn't married, YET she constantly brags about the 4 different boyfriends she has... ya ok like that's really something to brag about. She isn't even the slightest bit attractive. Adam and I figure she has that many men because she just puts out. YUCK! I'd rather go through surgery again then have that horrid mental picture in my head. It's not just that neighbor that I can't stand. A bit ago, I walked out to get my mail and figured I'd be nice and bring my other neighbor her mail since she is in her 80's and has a hard time getting around. What happens then? She bitches at me! She said I needed to stop snooping around in her mail. Riiiight like I'm sure some 80 year old has some deep personal letter in there... not to mention that I don't even like reading my own mail, so why would I read some one elses? So not going to be nice to that old bat anymore.

Monday my family and I are going to drive up to Knoxville to eat at our favorite Italian restaurant: Altruda's. Not sure how I'll be feeling Monday, but no matter the pain, you can't keep me from going to Altruda's. If you haven't been, it's this AMAZING place that has the best Italian food you'll ever eat. It's been owned by this man Paul for over 30 years and he knows a majority of his customers by name. It's quiet comfortable, great food, great service, and has wonderful tiramisu... my mouth is watering just thinking about it!

I'm getting really tired right now, so I'm thinking it's time for a nap. I hate being lazy and tired, but I guess that's what surgery will do to ya.