Tuesday, August 16, 2011

So long Mr. Kitty

I stayed with Adam last night and it felt so good to be there. Madelyn and Kalie weren't being very good so Adam had to bring out his belt a couple of times. Now we aren't the kind of parents that hit our children a lot, but we also do believe in spanking when needed... and trust me... last night it was definitely needed. It took FOREVER to get the girls to bed. Because school for them has already started, we like to get them into bed by 9:30 at the latest but they ended up not getting into bed until 11. After they went to sleep, Adam and I got to spend alone time together. He was being so sweet last night. He kept telling me how beautiful I looked and how much he loved me... it was great to hear, especially with all that's going on with us.

This morning I had to get up and leave by 9:30 so I could get home and get ready to go to the Humane Society to help out for their big adoption clinic. Adam was still sleeping so I gently nudged him and told him I had to go. I couldn't tell at the time if he heard me or not, but since I didn't want to keep bothering him, I got out of bed and got dressed. When I went to give him a kiss, he asked where I was going... lol after that, I ended up staying for an extra hour. :P

I really feel like we are making progress though. I know I don't need to get my hopes up in case something does happen again, but it's nice seeing him act the way he is.

Anyways, yesterday morning a little kitten came to my door. He was absolutely GORGEOUS and so sweet! I knew I couldn't keep him because I already have several cats but gah... I wanted to so badly! During the middle of the day though, a family came looking for a kitten that was their daughters kitten. She was so sad that her kitty had escaped and the look on her face when I gave her the cat was PRICELESS! I ended up getting attached though during the several hours he was here :/ But i'm glad he's back where he belongs.

I hope everyone had a great Tuesday though! And enjoy your Wednesday! (:

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Holding it together...

My vacation went well. It was great to just relax and be lazy for a week. Adam and I spoke a couple of times while I was gone, and he truly seemed like he missed me, which was nice to hear. After the first 4 days though, I was ready to be home... but I stuck it out and enjoyed the rest of my stay in Isle of Palms. When I got home, I went to see Adam that very day. Seeing him felt great. We spent a wonderful night together and leaving him the next morning was extremely difficult.

I can see Adam trying to make this work, but at the same time I'm terrified that he is going to run again. I pray to God that we work out... Going through this has been the hardest thing... I would rather deal with deployments than this.

I did something a little silly though... I took one of Adam's shirts the other day and i've been sleeping with it. I find comfort in wearing something to bed that reminds me of him and that smells like him. I've gotten better sleep wearing that shirt than I did the entire week I was on vacation... Here's a tip ladies: Wanna sleep good? Where your hubbys cloths ;)

Madelyn and Kalie went back to school today :( my babies are getting to big! It killed me that I didn't get to go with Adam to take them... even though I'm just their step-mother, I love those girls more than anything in the world.

Today is a pretty lazy day. I'm just cleaning the house and then eventually going to lunch with my mother. At some point I've got to run by CVS and pick up the day-after pill (oops) and call the Health Department and schedule an appointment to get another depo shot (oh hell no).

I hope everyone is doing well!!!! (: